Friday, July 02, 2004
Date: Well, today was July 1st, but technically it's been the 2nd for a few minutes
Time: 12:04
Temp: 77°
Eyes: Pretty much, just this
Ears: Pimp My Ride from the other room
Heart: A little lonely
Mind: Stupid pit recording tomorrow and not Egon's Unicat
Immediate Quote: "... when Pimp My Ride returns!"
Arnold Bennett said "Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts." Especially if you make changes to something Cousin is "in charge of." She is like basically going against everything we do for no reason. All I can think is it's her way of being in control even if she's saying things she doesn't even mean. Oh well. I guess I just have to live with it. Houk said we shouldn't put negative things about the play in our journals. But screw that. I have to play in the pit for the recording tomorrow because Lord only knows why. We need me to. But it means I'll miss a Unicat show which makes me want to pass away.
ANYWAY! The play is coming along really well otherwise. We have the set all ready to move in to Central, and Roni is gonna start working on the painting of it tomorrow. We're finally done at Trinity and moving on to Central on Tuesday. It'll be a huge relief to finally be on the stage. Hopefully the lights will be in working order so our light person can actually do their job for tech week.
Tonight Alan was being really quiet and wouldn't tell me what was wrong for the longest time. But when I was taking him home he kinda just let it all out. He's just really sad that even though now him and Melly are getting along, he still can't be friends with Kristen. He is completely over her like that and just wants to be able to be friends with her but any time he has a chance to, he feels like Melly gets really paranoid and worried about him liking Kisan. And it just really got him depressed today that he feels like he's still not allowed to be friends with her even tho him and Melly are friends.
Everyone is kissing. Or at least almost kissing. I don't ever say this so I'm allowed to say it now. I really feel like everyone has someone and I'm just all alone. Just Jeff. Everyone has a boyfriend or girlfriend or kissing friend or someone who flirts with them or something like that. And I just hang out with them all. I hang out with couples. And everyone has someone to talk to or think about so I just sit there with them maybe singing a song in my head or thinking about something to keep myself awake while everyone else blocks out the world besides their lovah. And it's something people always feel and always complain about. But I never do. It never gets to me but lately it kinda has been. I don't have someone to kiss or hold hands with or cuddle with or think about when they're not around. I hate it. It's just been too long.
I think I don't really have much more to say. I'm gonna avoid talking about the Xanadu Home of the Future. Or even pretty much the whole trip to Orlando, just cuz it's not something I want to type about. It's not something on my mind. I need a job. Houk has been weird. Perry was cool today. I wish some people would stop hating this play. I wish some people would start coming to rehearsal. I wish everything went my way. I wish I had a different car. I wish everything for Cinderella was taken care of. I think that's all. Jesus Effing Cripes.
Jeff °o°
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Time: 12:04
Temp: 77°
Eyes: Pretty much, just this
Ears: Pimp My Ride from the other room
Heart: A little lonely
Mind: Stupid pit recording tomorrow and not Egon's Unicat
Immediate Quote: "... when Pimp My Ride returns!"
Arnold Bennett said "Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts." Especially if you make changes to something Cousin is "in charge of." She is like basically going against everything we do for no reason. All I can think is it's her way of being in control even if she's saying things she doesn't even mean. Oh well. I guess I just have to live with it. Houk said we shouldn't put negative things about the play in our journals. But screw that. I have to play in the pit for the recording tomorrow because Lord only knows why. We need me to. But it means I'll miss a Unicat show which makes me want to pass away.
ANYWAY! The play is coming along really well otherwise. We have the set all ready to move in to Central, and Roni is gonna start working on the painting of it tomorrow. We're finally done at Trinity and moving on to Central on Tuesday. It'll be a huge relief to finally be on the stage. Hopefully the lights will be in working order so our light person can actually do their job for tech week.
Tonight Alan was being really quiet and wouldn't tell me what was wrong for the longest time. But when I was taking him home he kinda just let it all out. He's just really sad that even though now him and Melly are getting along, he still can't be friends with Kristen. He is completely over her like that and just wants to be able to be friends with her but any time he has a chance to, he feels like Melly gets really paranoid and worried about him liking Kisan. And it just really got him depressed today that he feels like he's still not allowed to be friends with her even tho him and Melly are friends.
Everyone is kissing. Or at least almost kissing. I don't ever say this so I'm allowed to say it now. I really feel like everyone has someone and I'm just all alone. Just Jeff. Everyone has a boyfriend or girlfriend or kissing friend or someone who flirts with them or something like that. And I just hang out with them all. I hang out with couples. And everyone has someone to talk to or think about so I just sit there with them maybe singing a song in my head or thinking about something to keep myself awake while everyone else blocks out the world besides their lovah. And it's something people always feel and always complain about. But I never do. It never gets to me but lately it kinda has been. I don't have someone to kiss or hold hands with or cuddle with or think about when they're not around. I hate it. It's just been too long.
I think I don't really have much more to say. I'm gonna avoid talking about the Xanadu Home of the Future. Or even pretty much the whole trip to Orlando, just cuz it's not something I want to type about. It's not something on my mind. I need a job. Houk has been weird. Perry was cool today. I wish some people would stop hating this play. I wish some people would start coming to rehearsal. I wish everything went my way. I wish I had a different car. I wish everything for Cinderella was taken care of. I think that's all. Jesus Effing Cripes.
Jeff °o°
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